Ok - I'm disgusted with myself. I've gained about 25 pounds!!!
I know what to do and how to do it. I don't understand why I can't get myself to do it. It's almost as if I'm sabotaging myself continously.
I know that if I eat right and exercise I feel better physically and mentally. I know that if I eat right and exercise I could pull this weight off with no problem. Why can't I get myself to do it???
I want to look good and feel good. I know that weight does not equate to whether or not you deserve love. I do love myself but I keep abusing myself.
I call it addiction. I am addicted to food and my addiction is out of control. I want to get back into control. I don't understand why I don't.
I need to save myself from myself yet again. No one can do this but me. I need love and support to do it though. I get plenty of love and support from the people I surround myself with so there's really no reason for me not to do this.
I will take it one step at a time. I promised a friend of mine that I would go to the gym today. I will try to keep my promise to my friend.